I had the privilege to be on the Proverbs 31 Online Bible Studies conference call Monday evening with Mandisa. It was so wonderful to hear her speak and share with everyone on the call. I could write an entire series of posts on all the great insights she shared on the call. However, what really stuck with me was from Revelation 12:11, “by the word of their testimony”, we need to share our journey with others. So today, I’m going to reveal a little of my story with you.

If anyone would have told me years ago I would be where I am today, I would have laughed. In my mind, there was no way that God would use me. Those positions were reserved for those with certain looks, specific gifts and certainly no shadows in their past. I determined that the only thing I was qualified for as far as God was concerned was sitting in the back of the church on Sunday and occasionally helping in the nursery.

But God had other plans for me. He used me with my past mistakes and failures in such a mighty way.

Over ten years ago, I thought my world was coming to an end. My husband left our three small children and me. I was blindsided and completely devastated. I didn’t understand why we had to endure this valley. I felt like since my husband didn’t love or want me that God must feel the same way.

But God turned that mess into a message. I have been able to lift up, encourage and walk beside ladies traveling in that same valley.

The desire that God placed in my heart for women, like myself, who struggle with insecurities, doubts and fears, birthed my first book, Get REAL: Stop Hiding Behind the Mask.

Those things alone are amazing, but God continues to remind me that He is not done with me.

Last fall, on my birthday, I received news that rocked me to the core – it’s cancer. During the time frame from diagnosis through surgery recovery, I have the privilege of having family, friends and my Online Bible Studies sisters lift me up in prayer. It meant so much to me to know that they were not only praying for me, but also checking in with me to see how things were going. This season planted a seed. Months later, that seed has blossomed into the Online Bible Studies Real Hope Prayer Warrior Team that I am the director of.

God knew even before I took my first breath that He would take that insecure, frightened young woman hiding in the back of the church and use her in a mighty way.

Amazed doesn’t begin to put my feelings into words. I now know that no matter how you see yourself, it is how God sees you that matters (John 16:33). This is not just true for me. God can and will use you. Do not think for a moment that you are too far away for God to reach you. He loves you dear friend – never forget that.

Simply say Yes to Him and follow His leading and be amazed.

Your Turn:

  • How has God amazed you this week?
  • In what area do you need to stop listening to the lies and simply follow God’s leading and see what He can do in and through your life?

17 thoughts on “Amazed

  1. God is amazing me by keeping my mouth closed when I want to use a cuss word instead of really thinking of something better to say. I need to stop listening to Satan and his lies of how cussing would be better. It is not better. It only brings me shame and God displeasure with my words and I am not up lifting, I am tearing down.

  2. I agree with Jeanie! God has amazed me this week by helping me to control my anger and my mouth. Sometimes I get so angry when someone says something harsh to me or intentionally hurt me. I want to say something that would cut them to the core! I want them to hurt as much as I am hurting by their actions. God is working with me to pray for those and how to express myself without anger and hurt.

  3. God has amazed me by using me to share my story and help others who are experiencing a similar journey. I thank God for pushing me out of my comfort zone and telling me to step out from behind the mask and be me. I am thankful for blessings received because I said Yes to God, and stepped out of the way so He could to use me. Thanks for sharing how God has used you over the years. Your life touches many other people lives on similar journey. It was something you wrote that I came across when I was searching that touched my life and helped me move forward. God Bless.
    Marilyn V

  4. God has amazed me every day as a leader in these groups. This week the most amazing journey in a long time watching a grandchild who was expected to be in the hospital two months be going home in 10 days. God has amazed me over and over.

  5. Thank you for these words. God will use all the hurt and pain we encounter, to help someone else if we allow him to use us. I don’t know if you remember me or not, but I was part of the P31 writier’s critique group you lead last year. Your witness has been powerful to me and I have been following you on Facebook your blog.

    I have told my story in the past, but now in this new stage of life, widow-hood (is that a word?), I think perhaps it is time to tell this story too. Who knows the people who might need to draw comfort from realizing they are not alone on this journey.

    I am still praying for you and your ministry.

  6. What a beautiful reminder of how God takes the ugliest, messiest, worst parts of our lives and transforms them for His glory and our blessing. Thanks for sharing your story to encourage us!!

  7. Jamy, what a precious testimony to God’s ability to use what we see as unusable. I love you and your heart for serving our God and saying YES whenever and wherever you can. You may stay behind the scenes – but OH, how our God uses you to encourage! Love. You. Loads!

  8. Jamy,
    I was so blessed by reading your blog a year ago. When I met you face to face at the conference I was a bit star struck :). Your transparency has enabled me to be real and transparent too. This is my 4th OBS but my first time participating in the blog hop. Today I took chapter 4 to heart and shared a piece of my testimony. It was so hard to click the ‘post’ button. But so far no rocks being thrown. Only love. Only grace. I thank you for helping me say yes by reflecting His light in my life.

  9. I am continually amazed at how the Lord uses people in a real and mighty way when they simply let Him. What an incredible story, Jamy! I was raised by a single mom after my dad abondoned us, so I have so much respect for that struggle.

    God amazed me just yesterday when he allowed me to donate a trunk load of baby items to a teen mom who had just delivered her baby at 32 weeks. The amazing part is that yesterday was the 5 year anniversary of when my son Robert was stillborn. God allowed me to bless someone else and honored my son’s memory in the process.

  10. Jamy ~ I loved your post! You are so open and honest. I was also sitting in the back of the church afraid. I have also been divorced and blessed again with a good husband. I was a single parent for awhile. Sometimes you look at people in ministry and think they really haven’t walked in your shoes. I have been #amazed as well at how He has worked in my life. I still struggle with listening to negative self talk and I need to start listening to what God’s word has to say about me.

  11. Jamy, it is amazing how God uses these deep valley’s of despair as teaching moments for us. We are not aware of it while we endure the heartache, tears, loneliness and embarrassment, but somehow with Him beside us we are able to rise above it all, look back and be amazed. My amazement is related more to my work as I look back over the last 2 or 3 years when I was a supervisor. I stumbled, made mistakes, worked too many hours, cried a lot and wanted out. I am not a quitter so I hung in there and about 18 months ago I found P31 and my life has changed. Through prayer, God set me up in a different position at work. I have better hours, less stress and don’t have to directly supervise. I have a lot of projects, but I love it. It is more of a teaching position along with lots of phone time with patients. My amazed moment is more of looking back over this time to see where God has brought me. He is so good.

  12. Jamie, what a testimony! God’s not finished with you yet! Thanks for sharing your life and your encouraging words. God bless, and I continue to stand with you to declare that affliction shall not arise a second time and your healing is permanent. Amen.

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